The only way you can sleep forever is if you kill yourself.
Seasons, smells, circumstances. We remember being with all of our senses. Triggers are circumstances that are the same or similar to those that occurred during the happenings and that bring up feelings related to the happening. Certain smells, sights, places, or even times of the year may bring about feelings related to the what had taken place.
Every year around this time I start to feel sad and disgusting. The signs that make everyone else happy make me feel isolated and nervous.
Parasomnia and involuntary muscle movements.
Can’t sleep. My mind wants to create.
Scanning photographs. Mind scattering. Forget what I’m doing. Confused. Disassociation.
I tell people that I have Anxiety. I don’t tell them about the rest. I generalize it into one. I honestly don’t think most of my friends know about the rest. Loltrain.
This is me:
PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, Major Depression, OCD, Depersonalization Disorder, Night terrors. They all interrelate and stem from one another.
I wish I had a place to go when I felt like this.
This is the part where I swallow my Valium and make my self sleep.
Fucking erase your memories.
If I could go back and un-tell the both of you I would.
☹ ☹ ☹ arghh I have to stop doing this to myself ☹ ☹ ☹
I get bored of things so easily. And by easily I mean quickly.